Truman keeps checking in on me using just his eyes. Dad’s in my space, sitting right here and probably not realizing he’s just demanding that I give in. So Truman’s not on my other side, reaching for my hand or my shoulder or my knee, but he’s letting me know he’s willing to step in if I need him to. Yeah, I haven’t had nearly enough of him, either.
Dad’s used to people listening to him. Mom would point that out to my brothers all the time: he’s used to people showing him respect, but in Dad-speak, showing respect means obeying without questioning. You can’t respectfully disagree with Dad. He won’t let you.
The guys got off to college before Mom died. With Jim it was just barely, but he made it. She insisted, and intervened when she had to, but she never actually put herself between Dad and Jim, or Dad and Ken, when they were arguing. She’d stand back, and wait for things to calm down, and then work on one of them later. It wasn’t always Dad. Sometimes she had to sit Ken or Jim down and give them the Really? eyebrow and work on that side of things. And maybe I’m thinking about all this so I don’t have to listen to Dad’s carefully reasoned list of why I should leave here right now, despite the implied loss of income and the sudden change of plans.
“Lyssie.” He reaches across the table to cover my hands with his own. “We’ll figure it out.”
Mom chuckles in my mind, because it hasn’t occurred to Dad that maybe I’ve already figured it out.
The lodge door opens and we all turn to it like sunflowers at dawn, but it’s not a police officer. Edgar blinks at the attention, then grins, but it’s a little self-conscious because hey, it’s not just us. “Hi.”
“Hey, Edgar. This is my dad.” Who’s staring. “Dad, this is Edgar.” I couldn’t have said Dad knows who Edgar is, but he has to blink a couple times.
“Edgar.” Dad clears his throat and stands up to shake hands. “Aaron.”
Edgar nods. “Your daughter’s awesome, by the way. Not that I think you don’t know it.”
“Yeah, she is,” he agrees automatically, but Dad’s still starstruck. He doesn’t have a clue what he’s saying.
Truman clears his throat, but he doesn’t have to bring a hand up to hide a smile or anything. “What’s up, Edgar?”
He professionally ignores Dad’s glassy stare. “Have you heard anything? At all?”
Truman shakes his head. “They haven’t told us. Henry’s gone, though. We saw him leave.”
Edgar snorts and mutters something that might not be in English and probably isn’t a blessing on Henry’s health and home. “I heard Agatha’s back? And she’s okay?” His eyes slide past Dad and land on me.
The last word was more of a question than the rest of the sentence, so I shrug and nod. “Percy kicked her out of the van and told her where to walk. I think he was just buying time. She’s in her cabin now. Dad?”
“Yeah, I should, uh.” Dad clears his throat, and either he figures that maybe Edgar wants some privacy, or he remembers that Dina exists. “I should go and … nice meeting you, Edgar.”
They shake again, and Edgar waits until the door closes to sigh and smile a little ruefully. “Sometimes I don’t understand my own demographic.”
“You’re hot,” Truman tells him with a shrug. “Sorry, not sorry. Did you want Alyssa to get you some caffeine?”
“I mean, I’ll take it if you’re offering,” Edgar tells me, coming to a chair across the table from me but not the one Dad just vacated.
“Today’s a good day for caffeine.” I get up and go over to the machine, even though it’s plenty loud and we’ll have to shout our conversation. “Do you need to get out and make some calls and stuff?” Jonathan’s the one with the email passwords, but there’s always the library.
Edgar waves that away with both hands. “If someone really needs me, they’ll drive up like your dad did. Otherwise, I’m out of reach until August, and I’m sticking by that. Even if it’s not staying here.”
Truman grimaces as he sits down, too. “If for any reason Jonathan and Lydia are unable to continue at Loon Lake, I’m the one it falls to. I mean, I hope this isn’t a forever thing at this juncture, but legally I’m in charge. The point of all that being I’m here to fulfill your contract for the rest of the month, even if there might be a decline in home cooking.”
He doesn’t look at me as he says this, even though it wouldn’t take much to turn and meet my eyes. I mean, it’s not like I can blame him. We’ve barely touched on October of this year, much less the rest of our lives.
We’ll need a cook. Someone who loves spreadsheets and planning as much as Lydia does. But not for years and years, because she’s fine and she’s coming back and next year Jonathan will just call up Truman and make sure we’re both returning.
I concentrate on the latte art. It’s a special one I’ve been perfecting, just for Edgar, and it doesn’t turn out quite right, but that’s part of the charm. When I set the mug down in front of him, he looks, pauses, and dissolves into laughter. “If I Instagrammed that, it would blow up.”
Truman clucks his tongue. “Can’t Instagram anything from Loon Lake.”
“Damn it. Because that’s good. I’m touched. Seriously.” His smile is warm and crinkles the corners of his eyes.
“She doesn’t do custom latte art for just anyone.” Truman winks at me. “I might be jealous.”
“Okay, I was going to ask if you want something, too, but now it feels weird,” I inform him.
“I’m fine, thanks.” He grins at me to say that maybe he’s actually more than fine.
I could use a latte, mostly for the comfort aspect of something normal, so I return to the machine and get it ready for another round.
“Alyssa, are you staying?” Edgar turns to slightly look at me, but not fully head-on, like I’m a wild animal who might startle.
“Yes.” I say it before I can soften it to something like That’s the plan, because softening it would be the wrong move. Dad’s intent on me leaving, even before we figure out what’s really going on, and he’s probably going to take Dina away ASAP, but I don’t want to go. This is nothing I went to school for, and nothing I ever really thought I’d be doing, but I relax here in ways I haven’t anywhere else. Even dealing with cranky residents is something I know I can handle.
“Good.” Edgar sips his latte. “I might have to come back. Probably not next summer, since I’ve got too much going on, but I like it here.” He grins again. “It’s nothing like I thought I’d like, but I like it here.” Truman winks at me again, because he knows I feel the same way, but whatever he’s going to say doesn’t come out because the lodge door opens and it’s not a policeman. It’s Jonathan and Lydia, and I abandon my latte and Truman knocks over a chair in our rush to go hug them.
Cold Comfort: Saturday, July 13, 2024 – Henry (3), coming August 25